The struggle is real

April was not my month. To be completely honest, April was the most depressing and mind nagging month I’ve had in a really really long time. I have already complained about the whole “not being allowed to run before the stitches were taken out” thing, but that’s not the only problem I had with this month. My kryptonite, Pollen, was also being a real pain in the ass. Not to talk about the fact that “the monthly visitor” decited back at the beginning of 2015 to stay for waaay longer than just a week (we’re talking months, help!), and that didn’t exactly make things any easier either. I was pretty much thrown off balance, my routine got wrecked, and no matter how hard I tried I constantly messed it up. I was exhausted, tired all the time, constant pain, wasn’t able to wake up early, my breathing sucked, unhealthy eating, forgetting to eat at the right times, feeling lazy and fat, the list goes on..

I finally removed the last stitches and I could run again (you might remember me saying I was allowed to try to run and all that, well, I didn’t do it. Trying to take a shower was hard enough so I realized I’d just have to wait those extra 10 days before running again). Finally! It took me a few days to put on my Nikes again, but on Saturday I finally went for my first run after the break. Before heading out I was really nervous it would be pure hell to run again. I had only gotten 2 runs between Berlin and then so I was prepared for the worst. But the run actually felt amazing, not just because I had missed it so much, but also because I didn’t feel out of shape at all. My legs felt fine, my tempo was fine, all in all it was a great run. On Sunday I went out for a run again. It was pretty much the same as the day before. I am so happy it won’t take me much time to get back to top running shape again. I’m not sure if I mentioned this earlier when I was talking about the doctor’s appointments, but my blood results showed a high iron deficiency. I’ve been taking iron every morning now for the past 2 weeks and I think that might be the reason why it was so easy to run after the long break. We all know how important iron is, it just makes sense! So I’m glad it seems to be working.
Sunday run
Now that I am finally getting back into a good routine with my running I hope and pray all the other stuff I’ve been struggling with lately will fall back into place aswell. Taking 100 mg iron every morning seems to be helping with the dizzyness and fatigue. The running helps with most things. I think the only important thing I have left to fix is my diet. Which in my case means I need to stop eating unhealthy things, start following my meal-times again, eat more veggies, quit snacking, and drink more water. My brain and body is in a place right now where nothing tastes good and I don’t have any cravings (other than Starbucks Frappuccinos, haha!). I don’t really get hungry when I’m off balance like now, and because flavor is the most important thing to me I just end up eating things that I believe will taste good whenever I want to eat something or if I get dizzy. So a healthy eating routine is important in my life. I don’t like feeling unhealthy, I don’t like feeling bloated and insecure, I just don’t like it. I will get back on track and feel comfertable in my own skin again very soon, that is a promise I’ll make for myself.

All I need right now is some extra motivation and inspiration. And a thousand crunches, haha!

How are you doing?
What motivates you when it comes to being healthy?

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18 Thoughts on “The struggle is real

  1. Tommy A. on May 12, 2015 at 3:37 pm said:

    I know what you are going through Marie. I had surgery a few years back and it took me almost two years to get back up to speed before surgery. Hang in there, darlin. You will do it. just don’t beat yourself up at first. YOU CAN DO IT!! I am with you. I am glad you can get back on the road.

    • Oh wow, 2 years?:O Glad you were able to get back to the speed you used to have before surgery in the end šŸ™‚ even if it took so long. That’s pretty admireable actually, congrats šŸ™‚ Thank you so much šŸ™‚

  2. He, with so many plans, who needs motivation?
    It looks more like you are anxious to get back on track.

    Maybe is time for me to have more iron; I’m a bit tired when I woke up in the morning and I’m not used with this.

  3. awe. sorry about you not feeling like your regular self.!! I TOTALLY understand what you are going through. it sounds soo familiar. Before, I used to get in those funks all the time. I would miss a couple runs, than not want to run because of it, eat a bunch of garbage and feel even worse, making me feel insecure of how I looked, and just causing me to eat more.! it was a nasty cycle.
    It’s a new month, you’re able to run again.! and hopefully the pollen will calm down a bit. šŸ™‚
    keep your head up. and this might be TMI, but have you ever thought about another birth control.? some help with lowering your monthly visitor. Mine actually makes it that I rarely, if ever get one. So that’s nice.!
    Glad you’re taking Iron.! that’ll do wonders.
    Take care Girl šŸ™‚

    • Yea, it’s the worst.. Hopefully by the end of this month I’ll be back to where I want to be :3
      Yes! I talked to my doctor about it on my 1st appt. there, but forgot all about it on the next xD I have that thing in my arm that lasts for 3 years. Will suck to change to something different, just because I feel this is the safest option, but if I have to I’ll just have to.. šŸ™‚ next time I’m there I’ll have to remember to ask again xD Lucky you! :3 Thanks, Jessica! šŸ™‚

  4. Hopefully, you are now back on track. I have to take iron supplements too, and when my iron is low, it is a struggle to get out of bed. THe funny thing is the fatigue for me seems more mental than physical, but very real nonetheless!!
    What motivates me to eat healthier–feeling better. I also notice that it is WAY easier to eat healthier in the warmer weather–smoothies, salads, etc.
    Hang in there–You are making a come back!!

    • Not fully there yet, but hopefully very soon now! šŸ™‚ It’s insane how different you feel when your iron is low vs. normal, and how much a little iron can affect everything in your daily life.
      Thanks, Cheryl! šŸ™‚

  5. I am struggling with the pollen + that time of the month combo right now. UGH. I am sorry to hear that your issue lasted so long, but it sounds like you’re on the path to being back to normal, yay!

    I think a couple of us are riding the struggle bus right now trying to get back into a good running routine. I know last month I didn’t run much AND I also didn’t change my diet and I can tell that my pants are a little tighter – bleh. The good thing for both of us is that what we experienced with not running/not eating healthy is really just something we did short-term but we WILL get back on track! We’ll do it together!

    • Worst – thing – ever! xD Sorry to hear you’re having some of the same issues right now. Blegh.. Yes, hopefully the feeling is right šŸ˜€
      Right! As long as it’s only short therm it’s probably going to be alright šŸ™‚ Together! šŸ˜€ Thank you, Kristina.

  6. I’m so sorry to hear you had such a rough month šŸ™ I hope you are on the upswing of things now and can get back to feeling more like yourself.

    Last month was pretty rough for me workout wise as well. I am finally starting to get back on track this week, I’m just hoping it lasts!

    • Already feeling a lot better and more like myself šŸ™‚ Guess I’ll just have to be strict these coming weeks in order to not mess things up in the beginning haha šŸ™‚ I’m sure I’ll be okay very soon šŸ™‚ I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you! šŸ˜€ Thanks, Courtney!

  7. Glad to see you back. Certain parts of the year my allergies really do a number on me as well. Isn’t it crazy how the smallest change in our body can send into a downward spiral?? Very glad to hear your feeling better.

  8. Oh my what a beautiful scene that picture is šŸ™‚
    I am sorry to hear you were feeling so bad. Iron is very important. I am glad you are feeling better since taking it!
    That’s awesome your run felt so great after a break. Sometimes a break is very remedy we need, but we always feel so bad when we take one. One day at time šŸ™‚ Sounds like you have a good thing going, just need to build on it. Work that 6 pack šŸ™‚
    I am motivated by how much better I feel when I take care of myself šŸ™‚
    be comfortable in your skin Marie, you are beautiful.

    • Thank you, Karen! šŸ˜€ It’s really beautiful around here in the spring/summer time, I’ll probably post a bunch of pictures from my runs from now on haha :’)
      Absolutely, it’s amazing how much different my body feels after just these 2 weeks taking extra iron. I really need to take better care of stuff like that. Those abs better be back before my trip to San Francisco! Haha šŸ˜€ You are so sweet, thank you again, Karen <3

  9. I feel you, sister! I am starting to struggle with this pollen-thing myself, and it really messes up my head! My nose, my eyes and I’m tired all the time. Not a good place to be, when you have to study for finals, haha!

    I’m glad that you’re starting to get back on track! I tried to have a decent diet, and I did well for one week, haha. Happy that you got more of the willpower than me. BTW, I have finally posted pictures of my room. It only took me about.. 6 months or so? Haha! Miss you! <3

    • I hope you have some allergy meds! If you don’t then I really think you should get some :O Such bad timing for this whole pollen-hell.. Keeping my fingers crossed for you, boo <3

      Thank you! Haha one week is better than nothing. You'd laugh if you knew how my diet has been lately xD ugh. But change is in the air :3 YASSS, FINALLY! šŸ˜€ Can't wait to check'em out! šŸ˜€ Miss you too!<3 You have to come home soon!

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